I am having a hard time coping with other people recently. I was embarrassed and disappointed by the people whom I truly trust. Shit, happen, right? But why I’m experiencing these things? Sometimes I want to be alone and shut people out.
I’ve been engaging myself in the online world for the past months. Playing different types of games, chit chat with other people around the world.
Seriously, I love meeting new people. I’m somewhat excited about exchanging stories and experiences in life because, for me, it is one of the best ways to know the person better. But what if you meet someone who would destroy the inner peace in you? What will you do? In my case, I can’t completely cut ties with them; however, if it’s the right thing to do for myself, then I have no choice.
Most of the time, I choose to help them; I prefer to guide them and adjust to being more comfortable with me around, but now I’ve decided to pick myself over anyone.
Self-love is what I needed right now. I don’t need a relationship with someone who just needed me for convenience. I don’t need someone who is taking advantage of me and lied to me.
This sadness is one of the reasons why I am blogging. Slowly, cutting my engagement to different social media because it doesn’t help me at all.